a quickie. today lorenzo and i were in the kitchen watching the rain drip down the window and i was taken back to my childhood when i would do the same and imagine the little droplets running down were little rabbits racing across a field. it's amazing how babies remind you to live for the moment. they're very good and making one mindful of the present.
in addition to my turning 30, lorenzo turns 6 weeks old today.
he should be making his own antibodies now, which is a big deal. we also measured him and discovered that he grew 1 1/2 inches! his little outfits are highwaters now. hahaha. happy 6 weeks, renzo.
whew. thought i'd never get here! a milestone from most people's perspective, but really just an arbitrary milestone if you think about it.
i used to have this bar conversation with my friends at the ale n which in new brunswick on our senior year, when we asked something like, "what/where would you be right now if you can be anywere?" or something like that. and i said 30. i was 21 at the time and was working in an art gallery and most of the people i was associating with were in their 30's and some of my friends at the time were as well. i thought it was a time when things get settled and your life is on its way. now that i'm here, with my beautiful wife, baby and cat, i have to say that it's nothing like i expected it would be, and i'm nowhere near what my expectations were at 21. i have to say that i am happier where i am than where i thought i wanted to be. and thanks to robin, i get closer to being a more compassionate person in the world, and closer to letting go of the nagging questions about why i am here.
lorenzo turned 5 weeks old this week.
he's getting chubbier and is making lots of faces. last week i started bottle feeding him expressed milk, which is a joy. we got a king sized bed so the little family bed is now like a big island floating in the parquet floor sea. lorenzo's best friend seems to be a black and white star rattle with a smiley face that we call mister star.
think of baby feet
dimpled, pursed and tucked under
the smell of baby's breath
a beautiful, beautiful boy
skin to skin
sweet bed smells
a family bed
snow falls in sunset park
a woman cries with depth and unrestrained emotion
catching a beautiful new life
a bluer sky
Lorenzo was born at our home in Brooklyn on 1-21-2001 at 11:18. He's 6 pounds 6 ounces and 19 inches long. He's beautiful.